Here:
Like the memory from your mother's house
From before you got too old
Like the feeling from a photograph
Before it's meanings all got told
The words I say can be silver
But what's left unsaid can be gold
So get to know me once I go away
Maybe 'cause I come from such an empty-hearted town
Or maybe 'cause some love of mine had really let me down
But the only time I am lonely is when others are around
I just never end up knowing what to say
If I wanted someone to clean me up
I'd find myself a maid
If I wanted someone to spend my money
I wouldn't need to get paid
If I wanted someone to understand me
I'd have so much more to say
I want you to make the days move easy
I took everything I thought from what it means to be a man
We need words to be put to what we do not understand
While you lean into the echoes and you do not raise a hand
Oh woman, help me see it like it is
If I wanted someone to clean me up
I'd find myself a maid
If I wanted someone to spend my money
I wouldn't need to get paid
If I wanted someone to understand me
I'd have so much more to say
I want you to make the days move easy
If I wanted someone to clean me up
I'd find myself a maid
If I wanted someone to spend my money
I wouldn't need to get paid
If I wanted someone to cut me down
I'd have handed you the blade
I want you to make the days move easy
I just want you to make the days move easy
This is ALL I wanted. ALL I want.
Some days, you'd text two or three times. And that'd be it.
And... it made the days move easy.
I knew... I knew everyday there'd be words from you.
All the rest.. all of it... it was more than I could ever have imagined.
I never thought anyone... certainly not you...
I never thought that was for me.
I just needed you to make the days move easy.
I don't know if you ever really understood …
Just sitting across the table from you … just looking into your eyes...
It took everything away.
That... that you wanted more... surprised and thrilled me.
I wanted more every single time I saw you...
But I didn't want to ruin … what we had.
I wanted the days to move easy.
I could sit in your apartment and work all day knowing you were there... and the days would move easy
I don't … didn't... still don't … expect you to understand it all. Or make it go away.
I just... I want you to make the days move easy.
I know... I know because you told me... I made your days move easy.
I don't need any more than that.
I don't need to be deep in your mind... I don't need you to be 13 again.
I need to just be there.
To be the one who is "so positive and encouraging."
I won't ask questions. You can tell me what you want.
In your presence, every single minute is pure joy.
I once told you that all I wanted was to be with you... all the time.
You said, "You'll change your mind."
But... well, I won't. I haven't.
Because I don't need all the extras.
If I glanced over and you were there... If I saw your face... If I caught your smile. If I saw you bending down to pull out a drink from the refrigerator. If you touched me as you passed me by.
The warmth of your skin.
I don't even think you know it.
Or, you won't admit it.
Your power.
Everything is ok when I'm with you … when I was with you.
And... well, for so long, nothing was ok.
And it certainly wasn't ok to not be ok.
But.
All I needed... was someone to make the days move easy.
And... for the first time, they did. For the only time in my life, they did.
You were quiet, private, careful. And you made me laugh, smile, relax.
I let it down... let you know.
You made the days move easy.
Until.
Until I said the words that made you think I wanted more.
Yes: I want ALL of you. When you're ready.
But... what I want most... from now until forever … is YOU -- to make the days move easy.
No one's ever done that for me. It seems like no one else ever will.
Thank you, Dawes, for writing these words...
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